More thoughts on being present
“I don’t really have anything to write about today.”
That’s the first thought I had after opening my writing program. Generally I go with that, but I’m trying something new: Writing something everyday. More on that in a future post.
OK, here’s another thought I had today, “why am I utterly incapable of NOT fretting about things yet to happen?” In words that will make sense to anyone not in my head, why can’t I just be present? I posted about being present earlier this month, and I stand by what I said, it sounds trite. Actually the part I stand by is that it’s applicable in so many situations. Take me right now, this post is all about me after all. My life is once again in a holding pattern. I know I’m going back to Seattle for awhile, and I know when I’m leaving. at the end of March. it’s nearing the end of January. that leaves me, let’s see – carry the 1 – 60 days! just over 2 months of not being able to move on. of not being able to make progress towards that elusive end goal of…actually I don’t know what the end goal is just yet, still working on that.
Why can’t I just enjoy listening to the birds while I walk to work? Actually I know the answer to that one, too busy staying upright – have I posted about the scooter drivers in this country?!?!
I will – assuming I live long enough.
Here’s my plan: continue meditating 2x a day. It’s only about 10-15 minutes, but I’m finding that it really does help keep me centered and alert to my surroundings. I seem to be more able to just enjoy that walk to work, rather than spending the entire time worrying about paying rent when I get back to Seattle. Or whether or not my guy at the placement agency is really going to be able to find me something that pays as good as what I had last year.
Twitch twitch BREATHE…
How do y’all deal with this? Am I the only one who can’t seem to reel in my overactive forthought?
Pre-publish update: Opera just crashed as I was literally moving the mouse to the “Publish” button. Deep Breath. Thank you WordPress! Gotta love the Draft Autosave feature.
I needed this reminder that “calm” is a work in progress. Thanks for that. I have a lot of friends who meditate. They swear by it. It has never, however, been something I can do. I can’t sit still enough and I don’t do “quiet” well. A while back, I wrote a piece about different things that people do to find their happy place… for some its meditation, for some its running, for me its knitting. You can find the article here: http://www.organize-more-stress-less.com/home/2009/11/20/find-your-happy-place.html
As long as you find something that works for you, I say go for it! For me it’s meditating, for you knitting (which incidentally drives me batty)…so this is a perfect example of “to each his/her own.”
Thanks for the comment!